I feel most of the time confuse about sex appeal. Being trapped under my own body that some people like to call a ''high-school boy's body'', I never was conscious of the amount of sex appeal a woman body could have. (Ok, i'm lying. Everyone who knows me a bit is aware of my never-ending obsession with female's curves and foxy women.) To be honest, most of the days, i feel as sexy as a dirty cougar. Never I ever felt confident to wear heels with a short-length dress, mostly because I rather feel chic than skanky. I'm confuse because as much as I love attention, i despise the eyes of the lusty men.
At the meantime, i feel like i'm acting like a 50 years old woman. Since when sexyness was something wrong? Since when showing a little bit of skin became odd for me? All I can do is wonder when the heck am I going to have the confidence to pull it off? Strangely enough, Megan's secretely told me that I had a strong sex appeal aura. And from this moment, I couldn't help but wonder if the image I try to give & to project (The shy-looking woman) is finally a disformation/misconception of the reality, or an exhausted effort to feel asexual? Either way, i got to get inspired somewhere, & it is starting now.
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